Dealing in Bullsh*&! Ones Own and Other Peoples

where to begin?
for some strange reason the thought of bull
and other peoples ____just crossed my mind
okay so maybe it didn't!
the truth is, i've thrown myself back into the world of dating
and in dating we deal with another persons personality, life, and issues
to summarize we deal with their bull___!

are you thinking that's a harsh way to think of it? I don't think so.
i'm just being honest.

with these thoughts...[i have no clue where this post is going but oh well]
i often wonder - exactly how do people get together?
for some folks getting together is based on looks
for some it's intelligence
then there are those who look for the opposite of themselves
oh and the best is those who look for someone that reminds them of their mother, father or a person who has inspired them...
and then there's something where we attract certain types of people based on our aura.

so again, where is this going?

okay, now that I am dating [forreal] again for about 3 months or so now...
i've started to think about the guy i'm dating (after a few random conversations with this guy and some of his actions)...

thinking about his bull and what future dealings with him might be like.
he doesn't have a lot - but what he does have is questionable.
part of me is like really? to deal or not to deal? it's so easy for us -in today's time- to just quit a relationship.
i really don't like to think of myself as a quitter...
so the past week i've kind of moved back from the situation with him to evaluate "him" [quite possibly he's found my blog and reading this].
i haven't come up with much in my evaluation, i'm really just stuck and now questioning myself and my personality or hey! my bullshit.

with that being said we are going on a little trip this upcoming weekend and i'm trying to figure out my mood. hopefully this trip can bring some perspective and closer - because i need some ASAP!!!

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Update: Since this was written we've gone on our little trip.  The trip was good, interesting, etc...but now I have new questions!

Yes, I'd like a side of underarm and belly with that!

Urban Dictionary has a number of definitions for it. I think for general purposes I'll go with definition #1, but definition #6 is the more known definition if you are young and hip -idk, ig! the definition is defined as:

"form fitting white ribbed tank top worn by men;
looks good on well-built fellas, pathetic on skinny fellas,
and disgusting on fat beer bellied fellas."

Dictionary.com only provides one definition for it and it's listed under "slang dictionary." it reads:

   1. n.
      a sleeveless undershirt. (Indicating a low regard for the wearers of the garment. See also boy-beater.) :  He always wears wife-beaters with no outer shirt.

and Wikipedia, well they provide an entire write up on it here and here

and then there was my blind date who decided that he'd like to show his - when dinner was served - at the restaurant - season: winter!

why?

his response:
"I don't want to spill anything on my shirt."
"Oh, I do this all the time."

my response:
to myself: "wow, i didn't see this coming."
to my date: "hmmm, i don't do this all the time and from the way it's looking, i'll never do it again."

image via

to say the least that was my first worst blind date - 

a dude taking of his shirt in public to eat his meal. 

there's absolutely nothing sexy about that! 
my second worst blind date...a guy with really long fingers nails 

who didn't mind licking his fingers during dinner.

***This post is a #B2SB2B week#2 - Idea Bank: Worst Date, hosted by Kludgy Mom ***

so there you have it

This post is a part of Sticky Note Tuesday