Happy Mother's Day

A somewhat new mother’s story

Growing up...

I guess you could say most little girls grow up saying, "when I grow up I am going to get married and have kids.” Agree? I did say most because not all girls say that (believe it or not).

Well, I said it…thousands of time, over and over again. 

Ages 24-29...

I thought about children – I didn’t have any. I wasn’t dating anyone seriously and if I was dating the relationships never amounted to anything.  I then decided it’ wasn’t important if I didn’t have kids…I loved being free. And I enjoyed watching my little cousins, GOD kids, and friends kids – and then sending them home.

Jumping to age 30 on...

I’d say it wasn’t till around the age of 30 that I can honestly say I said I would not have kids at all in life. I was getting way to old! Really I was. I was enjoying my life and I learned to be alone and I was reviving my design business. Life was good.

Age 33 and some months – but too soon age34...

Oh snap I’m pregnant. A baby! What? You’ve got to be kidding me? Should I be excited or sad…I had no clue.  I had said I wouldn’t have kids. I was okay with not having kids. I was dating someone but I wasn’t married. How does one explain this? There was nothing traditional here! I know I’m not the first single parent…but that wasn’t my plan.

So I’m pregnant and I still never fully realized it until the 7^th month – however – everyone around me was fully aware and kept reminding me. By the way, it’s a boy (HAAAA…but you knew that)!!!

GOD had a plan.

 

Late Fall 2008...

I’m getting closer and closer…okay so the time is here! It’s Miller time (labor)! I knew my little beeka was coming but of course the doctors didn’t believe me. Unlike some, I had an easy labor - in by noon, out by 4:25PM. However, the time getting up to that point I had a few issue here and there.

Wow…life! You know – I still couldn’t believe it…even as I held my son in my arms for the first time.  It was a rough few months. The lack of sleep, lack of bubble baths, the crying, the breast feeding, and the emergency room visits, NICU, etc.! You momma’s know the deal! I think I was delirious for about 6 months!

19 Months Later...

Wow…life! I still can’t believe it…okay, really I can! I’ve smacked myself in the face a few times, reality has set in. I’ve had some trials along the way but:

I continue to grow;

I continue to be in awe and in amazement at life’s process;

I continue to need caffeine;

I continue to wonder if this kid is going to eat me out of a house and home (yes);

I continue to wonder when those incomplete sentences will become full sentences and a bit clearer (so I can say shhhh or stop talking so much.J);

I continue to hold my son in my arms as I did the first day I met him out of the womb;

I continue to wonder if I’ll be the best, most resourceful, loving mom there is to be; and

I continue to gaze into my sons eyes and realize I wouldn’t trade being a mom in for anything else in the world!!!

Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms out there! Hey, and Happy Mother’s day to me (because last year it didn’t quite hit me…but this year it has).

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